No joke, elevators where a night mere for me at Anime Milwaukee. I was so panicked because people would get very close to me.
So issues i had.
- Neck piece choked me.... no really, I was in serious pain
- My thigh pieces didn't fit me perfectly and so they fell... a lot... like I couldn't walk. I got cuts too..... oh gosh, typing this out makes me realize why I didn't want to write this...
- Oh ya, lost one of my gloves in the elevator.... I was also upset because the gloves where not the right color(it bugged me because I wanted them to be brown).
So ya.... It was sort of a disaster for me. I felt like kind of a failure considering real life wasn't going to well. I was losing a really good job so I knew I wouldn't be able to fund many more cosplays for a while and I really wanted to do a good job. After this I felt like a failure in general, my own life wasn't going too well and my cosplaying was going just as good.
Not to mention my weight... I'm not saying everything would have been fixed if I weighed less but it was disappointed in myself. I tend to eat everything when I'm really sad and it is so incredibly bad for my long term physical health. The pictures just made me feel even more disappointed in myself not only about my physical health but how I had failed in making the cosplay wearable.
So ya, I put this off..... I'm such a wimp like that..... but I have to start facing all of my problems head on. No more putting it all off, I need to get over all of this and start moving on. Another job will come and everything will work out some way.
Here's some pictures....
Thanks for reading... it was just something I had to get out there. Now I feel like I can actually start doing stuff for the blog again.
~ <3 Lulu
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